Who am I, really????

So much going on in my head, so many thoughts, so many questions!! I feel like several things in my life are out of control and I don't like that feeling. I have become very lazy and would rather nap on my time off than to be proactive and have things in order in the house. I have got to work on and control the things in life that I can. There have been issues in the family for a couple of months and there is nothing I can do to fix it. I could say how I really feel but I fear that would only make things harder on Thad. I don't understand his family!! Thad is very stubborn and set in his ways and normally when there are issues with the family he is as much wrong as them, but not this time. The situation had nothing to do with him, he got drug into it and when he let his feelings known, his family turned against him. When he really needed his dad to be a dad he couldn't put his father duties before "Pastor". Which brings me to another uneasiness I have, I have never questioned my faith. There have been several situations lately that make me question what I was taught was wrong and right. I know I just need to read my bible and find the answers for myself. One of the ones weighing heavily on my heart right now is, if there is a child out there, of a different race, that needs a family why is it wrong for me to take them in. Well I suppose I should get back to work.

Baseball, camping, surgery.. oh my!!

Dusty has really been keeping us busy this year with baseball. The regular season ended last week and then Dusty was picked for All Stars. He has really come a long way this year and I honestly believe he deserved it!! We have already started practicing and our first tournament is Friday the 11th!!!

Momma has had an extremely rough time lately! She had back surgery April 11th and then surger to remove polyps from her vocal chords (again) in May. Thank goodness they turned out to be ok and not cancer. She had to go into the hospital Memorial Day with an infection in the wound from the back surgery. Thankfully she is home now and feeling much better!! Maybe we can keep her on the up and up.

One of my friends mom passed away suddenly monday night. It has really hit home!! I feel like I have kind of put my mom on the backburner and I vow to not do that anymore!! We only have one mom and she has always taken great care of me and it is time I return the favor.

We enjoyed a weekend at the lake, well with the exception to the storms we ran from. I do love it over there though, so peaceful and my kids are so in there element with being outside.

funnies

On the way home the other day Kaley was "coughing" I handed her my drink and she took a drink and said " that sure did make my tummy feel better mom, you are a gengus".

Yesterday morning she was telling me about her sister named Kayla and by last night she had added 2 more Ayla and Asa.

This morning before we left the house we had to have blankie (of course), her baby, her schedule book (a bible I got when I was Elem school, not even sure where she found it) and chocolate milk (cause I'm a good shaker) LOL!!!

Busy Weekend

It is Monday and I am soooo tired!!! I want to go home and just crawl into bed, but... instead I will spend hours folding the mountain of laundry in the bedroom.

This weekend was a busy one. Friday night Dusty had a ballgame, those boys they played soo hard the first and last innings but the 2nd one they just didn't have their game on. We lost 12-9! We slept in Saturday morning, after we got up and ready me and Kaley stopped at a couple of yard sales and a consignment store then headed to the grocery store. After we dropped off our groceries we met my bestie Beth and Ciera for some shopping at the mall. That night we went to eat at James and Stacy's house for lasagna. We got up Sunday and hung out for a little bit then headed to Calhoun for Jessi's bday lunch. I can't believe she is 2 already!! It was a busy and crazy weekend but I am thankful that I got to spend it with my friends and family!!

FUNNIES

Friday night we were driving home from Dusty's ball game and Thad was a bit upset about something that happened there. He was telling us all about it when from the backseat Kaley says "Daddy, I'm gonna need you to take a breath" he politly told her to be quiet. Then we stopped at the store and he got out of the car she said "Freakin old man". I had to turn my head so she couldn't see me laughing. With that one you never know what is going to come out of her mouth next.

odds and ends..

Had labs today to check on a couple of things to see what is making me so tired. Hopefully I will get the results back Monday. I really just want to feel good and be a better mother for my kids. At this point I just feel like screaming!! I am just soooo tried and irratable all the time! I am soo ready for spring for baseball and warm weather.

A Kaley-isms... our computer/playroom Kaley calls the dinosaur room, not sure where that came from.

It's been a long while....

since I last updated. I have completely jumped OFF the losing weight/exercising bandwagon. I soo need to get back on it.

My sweet little Nannie she is not doing good right now. She fell and broke her foot and had to have surgery. Well she fell again and broke it again, and had to have surgery again.

Kaley and Dusty are doing good and growing like crazy!